to one.
instead of dangling there
one might as well get well altogether
or jsut go die.
you are just god damn bringing everyone else down with you just because you are too stupid
i hadnt really scolded anyone stupid seriously before but you are just stupid.
do you have any idea you are using our resources.
sorry, i used the wrong word.
you are wasting our god damn resources.
want me to calculate the total waste?
im afraid i cant.
there's jsut too much.

to some of them:
you guys think you are so god damn great?
im a disgrace because i have the god damn surname as you all.
i hate myself because i might be in a way like you guys but i dont want to.
need help then come to my family.
dont need help then say whatever shit you want.
seriously you guys are just a bunch of mf losers.
i feel so god damn inferior to others because of you losers.
i dont even feel proud to have you all as family members.
zero achievements nvm
zero IQ
zero EQ
i will still address you all as what im supposed to address u all as
but nothing more than that
i dont respect you all.
because you all dont deserve it.
it must have be sins that i did in my past life to end up being a grand child of you and your other children.
shame on you all for the way you all treated my mom and dad.
you all seriously dont deserve any kindness from anyone.
nor the kindness that my parents gave to you all in the past..

to some, dont give up a whole forest because of a tree. even if thats the only tree that exist in your forest. it's either you plant more trees, or give all ur time and effort and understanding to the tree to groom it. though it sometimes may not be worth it because the tree is fruitless.

this year is simply not a good new year.

hello earthlings.

im using this very precious time when my com still allows me to look at the screen to come online and blog. one word to explain the situation and describe my feelings and emotions that is going through me with regards to the current terrible horrible and incorrigible condition of my laptop : BUANG.

the screen is totally off since almost one week ago and it became like that SUDDENLY! and i did not even dropped my laptop. maybe i should drop this god damn rectangular piece of electricity operated shit and then it'll work alright

worse is i can't leave it with ACER to god damn repair it because it will take ages plus all these holidays and somemore work had to be done! SO THIS LAPTOP HAD LITERALLY SCREWED UP AT THE WRONG TIME!

ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!
all i can do now is to pray for a new laptop or for a miracle to HAPPEN. like really happen.!!!! ARGHHHHHHH.

and oh ya, im so tired. badminton open ended yesterday. got second for both singles and doubles. blah blah blah the story goes on but because my laptop continues to screw up i shall not elaborate

save the time for the more important

a note to someone very important out there
I'LL BE BACK SOON.
thanks for being there with me for the past few days! especially staying back with me to support me for my games and bearing with all my sweat and all. bringing me towel and water and all. everything! thanks!!!!!!!
please take care and missssssss you la! 521


last but not least,
to my laptop,

*points the censored finger*
and
@(%&^#*%$#)*%#$%&#(&$#%!

ROAR!

gtg.
ciaoz earthlings

this weird feeling in me.
i feel like i dont want to care anymore
but the more i dont want to, the harder it is to ignore it

this sucks.

i wish i can be like this
i wish i can just be okay with not replying incoming sms-es
be okay with not picking up any calls
be okay by just disappearing
is this how it should be?

maybe im changed.
ive changed.
im a different person.
as different as how different you are at different times.

it's always good to go out with mom or dad or both.
because you can survive without bringing your wallet.
HAHAHA!

i kind of feel guilty because i'm the only one who doesnt earn a single cent yet spend the most money. but..come to think of it, i'm the only one who doesnt work! so can't blame me isn't it?

it feels so empty without you around here...

hello earthlings!

i am B-A-C-K BACK!!!!! from JB! and back to reality. like i've said, i've applied for leave today. so i went for a SHORT getaway with a dear one to JB for a couple of hours. i wanted to just switch off my phone since last night but i didnt. and work seems inevitable because there were just too much things to complete.

and how wonderful it is that the first call in the morning was from JOVIAN and it's about work. to be honest, i'm being sacastic here! HAHAHAHAHA.. after jovian i started receiving sms-es and more calls. so i busied myself with WORK the whole morning. but not really busy busy but i wanted to do nth this morning which i still did in the end.

oh well, luckily for me there wasnt any disturbance when i'm in JB because there weren't any reception. and i enjoyeddddd myself every min every second and every milli millliiiii second. now im suffering from indigestion because of the amount of food i had jsut now. there were bak ku teh, mee sua, Portuguese baked chicken, portuguese egg tart and i think thats all. oh ya and waffle! oh well, it's all worth it. as long as you're happy, im happy, we're all happy.

we need more of this getaway!

alright im going to sleep already earthlings.


you make me feel

hello earthlings.

ive decided to blog today simply because i DO NOT have to go to school tmr! i applied for leave and yes, i am going to make full use of my leave tmr. i'm going to dump all work and club stuffs aside and enjoy myself. so DON"T contact me regarding any work tmr!

i'm really excited about my leave tmr okay. so excited that im worried about falling aslp later but im kinda tired now already so yea. today i spent my morning falling aslp in club room when i had to do my feedback form. so anyway i caught a hour of slp or more on the tables.

and then i spent most of my time OUT of emrs room, mostly holding interviews in the clubroom and today i spent a great deal of time rehearsing for the CNY atrium event on mon. and then back to clubroom and clubroom and still clubroom. i do club alot siol(because i go to the clubroom alot). HA HA HA! laugh!!!

whats next, camp impact is postponed, like till may or june. so if any out there do not know about this, pleaseeeee take note!

im getting really tired and slpy.
good night earthlings.


thank you. =)

hello earthlings.

today, i spent most of my time living in a non existent world, living in my dreams. to put it simply, i slpt most of my time away today. because of open house, we've been staying till late night. so thanks to those few who had stayed back with Qd and me. heartfelt thanks to you all. and too all those who had helped out whether on the actual day or what. thanks.

Emrs open house is also over. of course since it was going on con currently with SBM club open house. but there was nth much to do for Emrs open house because all we had to do was to tend the booth and sell items. and most importantly to tend to customers which i hate most because i am already so tired to even smile, let alone serve the customers.

anyway open house's is down. now it's time for other events. i think i will continue to see some people very often. people like the excos and many more..dont get tired of me okay. because we will spend our nights in school after class or tep or what to do up what we need to do.

alright i think im starting to not make any sense already. going off to bed soon.
bbye earthlings.

so what if i miss you and want to spend time with you?

it's beginning to dawn on me how fast time has past and how little time i had left for many things. and how difficult it is to get things done. not saying getting it done fast, but jsut to get it done. unfortunately unless we're gonna bury ourselves in work for the next 2 evening and nights, we might not be able to finish everything. and i wont want things to screw up.

this morning i was stuck in a traffic jam on the way to school. no choice but to u turn and ended up there's another jam near the junction. so all in all i wasted at least 45 minutes getting jammed up. then i chionged all the way to school. i didnt speed, i jsut drove efficiently.

and after a long day at school, with average of 3 calls per day from the sup, which was sometimes rather irritating esp today bec we simply can't do anything because the supplier refused to be cooperative! anyway we went down to 'somewhere'. alright some campsite. and found it pretty good. at least not too bad to me. or rather much ideal compared to Saribun. to think we even thought saribun was a much better camp. we were so so so so so wrong!

alright. i jsut sent my grandma to aunt's place because she's returning to malaysia tmr~ how i miss her siol! no more mahjong-ing sessions with her alr! okay im dead beat now. im so tired yet i typed so much bec im using blogging as an excuse to let myself sit abit longer on the chair. now my eyelids are so heavy that they seemed to weigh a ton...i better start on what i need to do alr.

i just called to say, i love you

morning earthlings.

im so tired.

goodbye.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

morning earthlings,not like it's a very happy new year now. whatever that has happened for the past how many hours had totally put me off and the F word is running in my mind like a animated wall paper.. and i was down with gastric pain and stomachache and bodyaches and having the runs suddenly and couldnt join the rest at px's place. not like everyone's gonna be there anyway.

and just when i was feeling better you called and i thought i could get out of my house to find you. but you're unwell also, so nvm. sick then rest then can get well. so my NYE was spent with my family, playing mahjong and losing money. -.-'' not a bad way of spending NYE though.

mom and aunt and gram jsut went out. luckily dad's car keys are in my drawer. HIAK HIAK! i'll probably use new year as an excuse to drive out and that is if i have any dates later. if not i'll probably drive out somewhere also. it's a waste that daddy doesnt let me drive to sentosa. since no kaki(s) i might jsut go alone. if only i can drive there.

there's so much things going on now.
1. Open house (EMRS)
2. Open house (SBM Club)
3. Camp impact trial camp
4. TEP SL variety show
5. Subcoms recruitment aka interview

many many more...

so much things going on in my mind now. so much things i gotta start working on now. but i dont feel like doing anything. let's waste today away and start tmr.

new year didnt start on a high note. but things do get better dont they?
yes yes. keep on believing idiot huize.