hello earthlings.
im backkkkkkkkkkk.from malaysia in case nobody knew i went, i went for like 2 days only? left in the morning at around 6am. reached at 8 plus am. there was abit of jam at both singapore and malaysia custom. as usual the jam at singapore was worse.

dad drove us for breakfast first before heading home.settled down(put down things) and then head to grandma's house. sat around doing nth and then finally went back to grandmother's house. afterwhich dad made me help him wash car. tiring job man.

then blah blah blah blah. snacks and then dinner. eat this eat that slack here slack there.it's almost all about gaining weight.anyway i played mahjong with mom and grandmom. 3 generations siol. and we all lost money to my mom. WTH. she just keep winning and winning and winning. luckily i managed to recoup my loses in the last few rounds.

sunday was more of a rush.might be because i woke up too late. anyway i cant rmb much except for going to god ma's place and then to some temple and then we headed back to singapore.

the jam was quite bad despite leaving rather early.reached home in the evening.jasmine came over and chit chattted and chatted and chatted. finally she left at 12 plus.
and i slpt at ard 2 plus. bec i went to read after that.

then this morning i was woken up my mom. told me i need to acc my aunt to JB to settle some stuffs and off we go.it's my first time taking public transport to JB,not too bad but hmm.gotta walk alot. and i met xiyao on my way back to singapore. he msged, tey hui ze. nice shades.eh buddy. is TAY leh.sit beside me for 2 years still dunno my surname! RAWH.

then reached home but it was raining very heavily.and i was dead tired so i took a short nappp..and awww i din get to meet up with xi yao and chee onn! sorry budddddsssss. now im staying home. doing nth. in fact ive got tons of work to do. but then........

good bye earthlings.

i chanced upon this song by natasha bedingfield.
named 'Pocketful Of Sunshine'

unfortunately youtube doesnt allow embeding so i cant place the clip here
so i can only put the link here...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCU06qKV_jA

check out the mtv dudes and babe.
it's a nice song.
guess most of us need this kinda song.
check out the lyrics...
http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/natasha_bedingfield/pocketful_of_sunshine.html

take me away
a secret place
a sweet escape

hello earthlings.
im just done with changing my font for internet explorer.it suddenly turn out to be very big and ugly and yucky.anyway i finally managed to changed it back.it has been a busy busy morning.lotsa things to do here and there.updating flights and all.actually it had been not too long a morning bec i woke up kinda late.but it seems long.perhaps of the things ive done...

i wish people could reply faster to sms-es man.in that case things could be dne faster.and not needa like wait for replies and all.okay,not that i reply very fast to sms-es as well...oh welll.....

anyway my students totally pissed me off ytd.like wth.i went but no one was there.By right the sister should be home still even though the bro has got supplementary classes in sch. but by left she went MIA and even her dad couldnt reach her.and i had to call and call and call the dad bec apparently his phone sucks or sth liddat and he couldnt hear me.and i had to put up with his voice and his very unglam hello over the phone.so torturous.not that im biased against china ppl.but u know? sometimes they just pissed the shit out of you.imagine me risking my life chionging there just to be on time for tuition.god damn it.and i sacrificed my sleeep you know!

argh! yesterday jsut wasnt a good day.

but sunday was! and monday...
o6s17 bbq was a blast! good company and lotsa fun! pictures all up on facebook with many many comments that flooded my email each time i switched on the computer.every now and then there's pop ups sayin i received a mail from facebook..blah blah blah has commented on the photo~ hahaha..fun-ness..

o6s17 rocks my socks. TOTALLY!

oh yea and monday.what did i do..hmmm..headed over to schoollll and then went over to paya lebar in search for the warehouse for halloween stuffs.and then trained back to sch.i was soo tired i slpt all the way back in the train till mom called..and carried on slping after sl alighted..reached school met mom and went for dinner.then homed.

i feel like slping again.
maybe do some reading first.
bye earthlings.

most of the time
i had to convince myself
i aint that bad,am i?
but why do shit happens?
guess they'll just happen no matter what.

morning earthlings.

cheers friends

good morning earthlings.

i wanted to sleeep longer, like much longer but my house is infested with irritating bugs.one super duper fat bug and one thin bug.and i figured it'l be like that the whole week. okay, thank god tmr's friday. so only gotta endure one more day.

now my legs are aching like i dunno what! argghhhhhh! both legsssss~!
ARGHHHH *whines*

and im gonna trim my hair tmr..like trim trim.
yeap and im lazy to type already.
bbye

before i start with anything...

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON TAYYYYY!!!
HAPPPPY HAPPPPPYYYY BIRTHDAY MY HONEY MUSTARD!!!!
LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP LIKE THE OCEAN DEEP, HIGH HIGH LIKE SKY HIGH!

alright, im now waiting for time to passssss before i go for tuitionnnn kinda sian,bec the kids, not naughty but..sometimes..oh welllllll.one and a half hours! must hang on~ and then another tuition at night. 730 to 9pm. for the later tuition time passes quite quickly.

maybe when school reopens i'll give up one becauseeeee,i think there wun be enough time for both.see how~3 more wks to go! oh anyway, results were out this morning! school system sucks and i think ive clicked on log in for at least 50 times or more before i finally get to log in. but the first time i logged in, theres an internal server error and i cant view my results. so gotta log out and try loggin in again.

and then finally i gotta see my results.damn nervous.heart thumping, cold hands, shivering hands, confused state of mind,blah blah blah..nervous cos i seriously thought im gonna do badly.like buang.bec i did not do well for most of my ica(s). okayyyy..but it turned out quite okay..much much better than ive expected! and i cant really believed my eyes at first, so i read through a few times.till now im stil scared that the school will call and say that there's an error to my results! scared scared.pray prayyyyy...

anyway, thanks, really thanks. i wanna say thanks to this person who had been around like constantly during my exam period..pushing me on and on.askin my to study harder.study smart...give lotsa encouragements and give in alot to me during that time.thanksssss! im not being ke qi. im really thankful..thanksssss!

and sorry,i hadn't mean to lie.i really couldnt say it.
and i swear i had wanted to tell you many times but i din managed to.
sorry.

does everyone have days when you suddenly felt that nothing seemed to matter anymore?
or when you don't know what you live each day for, do all those things for?
there's a saying, live for yourself.
yet ironly, most people are not happy doing the things they think they are doing for themselves.
life's such a difficult puzzle.

i just woke up. and i think i'll sleep more later!

it's been a week.
and each day i miss you more.
god this is driving me insane.

tuition today was as usual.
tiring. though it was only for 1.5 hours.
morning, aud called me up to settle foreign students stuffs. after im done,went on to finish up with the materials for tuition. and im done.
afterwhich i drop dead.
why there's so much things i still want to do with you.
why i had let you slip away.
questions after questions.
grief after grief.

nice song that i chanced upon on television. happened that wl has it as well, so she sent it to me.thanks wl lover! this song has been repeatedly playing in my mp3 for the whole of today.

imissyouso.

okay.
there's so many things running through my mind now and still.
memories.
questions.
why this, why that.

i know it all doesnt really matter.
but oh well..
teach me how to just get everything out of my head.
and i need painkillers.

im losing my appetite again.

IM NOT EMO LA!

it's jsut a really nice song people.listen to it!
anyway im feeling hungryyyy...! and tired..and....dunno.went for jc gathering dinner jsut now and it was great. BBQ comin up on 21st. heh heh heh..and we camwhored a lot just now. unfortunately i do not have any pictures with me.

so i'll post them up soon!

you'll always be

pardon me if u sat in my car and this song plays on repeatedly.

suddenly a place or something that can be done float through my mind
and i thought,
ahh, ive been there/done that before.
with you

this is bad.
im up at 4 am, and a few times at 3 am.and at 2am and i took ages to fall aslp at 140am perhaps?
im terribly tired, but i just cant sleep.
when i close my eyes,my nightmare replayed itself.
again and again.
as if i will forget that my nightmare had came true.
i feel hungry.
but ive got no appetite
and i cant eat.

what is wrong with me!

good morning earthlings!
im still supposed to be in bed.but my mom woke me up! god,she has no idea what time i SLPT last night! kukunehneh! she had enough slp already then come disturb me early in the morning?! okay,not that early but STILL EARLY!

anyway,i went to look at sucker's blog and find her latest post (saturday's) quite true.oh wellllllllllll...true but damn emo.sucker,dun so emo leh.

so yeap..yesterday had been a long long long longggg day.let's start with driving to sch for the ANTARTICA TALK.it's a talk by felicity aston and paul madden,some british commission dunno what guy.anyway, the talk is supposed to be about antartica and it's relations to us.so joshua and i were crapping away bec there's so much time before anything. we were saying that we should control our breathing.

1.breathe at intervals of 2 minutes
2. people who suffers from asthma can breathe in at intervals of 1.5 minutes.

lame lame, i know.
then i came out with this theory, do not exercise. bec we take in more oxygen when we breathe in! so,dun exercise. and dun die! bec when we die, our corpse gives out carbon dioxide and other gases.then joshua said,but our corpse are fertilizers to the plants and trees.okay,so we CAN die.but we cannot be cemented.bec burning produces carbon dioxide which will in turn contribute to GLOBAL WARMING.which will affect the ozone layer, then affect the temperature at Antartica.

even though the melting of ices doesn't cause the rise in sea level DIRECTLY, it affects INDIRECTLY. why? ask felicity aston,i wasn't paying much attention to the theories thereafter. but what if,there isnt's enough space for dead bodies that are to be buried? easy, we'll stack the dead bodies up one on top of another.

come on people, do your PART! take in less oxygen,stop watching tv! stop using the com,in case u din do ur tutorial or online lecture, tell the cher you're doing ur part in saving the earth! and do not do ur tutorials on papers! where'd you get all your papers from! TREES! and where'd you get most of the oxygen from? TREES! to all students out there, stop printing notes.stop doing tutorials. let's just not do anything, sit down.take in as little oxygen as possible.best if you can dun take in any. then when u feel like ure dying,find a comfortable spot under any tree or on any grass patch.so when you die, you do not have to trouble people to carry you there, you become a useful person even after ur death. you're a fertilizer to the trees or grass etc!

anyway ive been introduced to this guy through joshua sharleen and espal.i think mike? gosh. not in a good way though and it proved to be worse after he really stood up and ask questions.im not discriminating but HAHAHA! felicity couldnt catch his qns.and come on, he really has a list of qns to ask.his courage is commendable but man, he should be more conscious of the number of people who are mocking at him!

alright,some ppl never realise such things.doesnt me im better than him.im sure, that there're things ive yet to realise also.much more things ive yet to realise..much much more.okay im not emo-ing.emo-ing does more harm than help.

okokay.after the talk i rushed off, bec i gotta check out shop's location and all.but i called dad and asked if i need to pick him up.backside itchy then i gotta go pick him up.i tot he will say no need! argh! ended up i reach home at 6 when im supposed to meet the others at 6.

side track: bs just reminded me how old we are already.

back to topic. so anyway everyone met at central at around the same time? except brenda and han inn! sorry girls,made u two wait for us! haha..attendance wasnt that bad. 8 turned up(cuilin,shuhan,hengqian,jieying,brenda,beesiew,peixuan,me)! HAHAHAHAHA! oh yea, we went to minds cafe BECAUSE we cant find pitstop cafe.

nvm about what cafe it is,we all had fun didnt' we! i cant wait to like go there again soon! to play the games,play taboo..bagladesh or what u call it game.hello im the winner! okay,it's a lying game. BUT it doesnt mean that i win cos i lie alot okay.i think i can make up very chim terms, such as international bear originate book (I.B.O.B), innovation hormones synthesis(I.H.S) etc. haiya but i always fall for bs's make up lies though..

i learnt sth through the game.
In San Franciso, it it illegal to wipe one's car with one's used underwear!
cool shit!
and it's true okay! HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA

cuixia dropped by to pass us keychains she got from uk.and left straight away.
sighs.

we left rather early.11? hahaa.cuilin and heng qian and jie ying! faster get license leh. can drive out together! then we dun need to worry about last bus etc! isn't that like GREAT? it's actually better than great.

it was great seeing everyone.thanks dudes,for turning up yesterday. to han inn, nvm luh.NEXT TIME MUST COME~! to jasmine, MAKE ur mom let u STAY OUT LATER!

okayyyyyyyyy.guess i shall stop here.ive lost the mood to blog already......


i don't know why im feeling this way.
maybe i'm supposed to be feeling this way.
maybe i'm not.
are things supposed to be like this?
it's always like, i'm not good enough.
and i never will be.

this short post will be dedicated to jia ling aka sucker.


ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (8:57 PM):
helllo
[5]; says (8:57 PM):
hey sucker :D
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (8:58 PM):
how are u
[5]; says (8:59 PM):
sucs
[5]; says (8:59 PM):
hahah
[5]; says (8:59 PM):
doing assignemtn now
[5]; says (8:59 PM):
no more things to write :\
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:22 PM):
hahah
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:22 PM):
i help u think
[5]; says (9:22 PM):
nah
[5]; says (9:22 PM):
i dont tink you know what it is :\
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:22 PM):
HAHAH
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:22 PM):
BELITTLE me
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
haha
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
of cos

THAT KUKU JIA LING THINKS I CANT HELP HER AND THENNN.......

[5]; says (9:23 PM):
ahah
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
anw
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
you free huh
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:23 PM):
KUKU
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:23 PM):
yea
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:23 PM):
WHY
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
help me research nia
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
haha
ħμι Żз. idiosyncrasy. says (9:23 PM):
research what
[5]; says (9:23 PM):
i want to buy this thing

GUESS WHAT SHE WANTS TO BUY

[5]; says (9:23 PM):
jelly lens

FOR HER OWN PLEASURE! AND I THOUGHT WHAT (*#)(%#$^*%)@($)*#(

Some people spend a lifetime pursuing their dreams, aiming out for their goals, overcoming obstacles. Living a fullfilled life. At their deathbed when they looked back into their life, they knew they had worked hard for something, worked hard for their dreams. They die without regrets, for either they had tried their best in doing what they need and want to do or for having achieved what they want to do.

Some people spend a lifetime trying to figure out what are their dreams, doing what they want to achieve in their life. They worked hard as well, for this particular dream that they thought was their dream. But unfortunately they sometimes came to realise that that is not their dream. It is not what they really wanted. So they figured and came out with another dream, then worked for it. However this might repeat a few times before they actually find the correct one. Not to worry, these people will not die in regret, they knew they had been here and there before, and had done this and that before. Life's not meaningless afterall.

There's another type of people. Some who does not care about dreams, who doesn't see a need in having one, who laughs at others with dreams. These people may have wealth and fame, but they have no idea what had they worked hard for these wealth and fame. Then they usually try to convince themselves they had worked hard so that their family can live comfortably. When they're dying, they sometimes had wished that they had done something else. But it's all too late.

Of course human kinds are not at all limited to these 3 categories of people. There might be lots more in between the lines, such as people who lived to fulfill dreams of another.


okay,this is a rather random post.
after typing so much i dun even know what ive typed it for.
anyway mom and dad's away to malaysia again.and i gotta help 'babysit' min long.and i keep thinking i have a car to drive.BUT NOOOOO! dad drove the car back to malaysia. I WANT A CARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
oh welllllllll.gotta go back to my stuffs.

not a good day.not yet maybe.

hello earthlings.
today is tuesday.
tmr is wednesday.
lame.

anyway i thought i'll be dead meat when i go for physio yesterday but it turned out quite well.BECAUSE i lied a little bit.white lies okay.i told her my knee's getting alot better! hahaha. oh well. i still have to cycle and all when i reach yesterday. i burned 150 kj calories cycling at average 80 rpm.then did launches and half squats and weight lifting.. al these are worth it! because i DO NOT NEED TO GO BACK FOR PHYSIO ALREADY.
but i gotta do the exercises on my OWN! YAY!!!! YAYYYYY!

anyway i went home after physio.wanted to take a bus but realised i have to walk rather far and it's raining.so gave up the idea of taking a bus and headed for the train instead.now,i have 2 options. option one is to walk to green line and take a train back to JE and change a train back to admiralty. option two is to take purple line back to dhoby ghaut then walk to red line to take a train back to admiralty.normally i will take the train that heads to JE but today i chose the later,option two.no time considerations were considered, i just felt like taking purple line.

and thank god i did bec i MET you! imagine if i had been later or earlier i wun be able to see you already! not bad!!! quite an coincidence isnt it. so yea...headed home after that.slacked and all before heading out for dinner.had dinner at esteller. and as usual my shirt stink. that food court smell.FAINTS.okay actually the smell isnt as strong yesterday.



a great and fantastic and marvellous walk.
sky was nice
decorated with twinkling stars and satellites
and an occasion plane that flies by
how i wish time could stop there
stop at when we're in a world of our own
stop when i could have you there with me
starry starry night